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| Tallulah and the rescued mannequin |
My new job is so consuming, sometimes just trying
to get people to care (I find myself assigning students to get high and create
art and then bring it to class for extra credit) that I've had little to none
of the brain space I used to enjoy for doing my own unscripted thing. When I'm
not performing the sleek authority figure or outré hip professor I'm writing
(again) my novel--and the sentences flow so differently, so satisfyingly, and
so slowly that I can tell my subconscious is locked in the arms of this
creature of my making and remaking.
Now miraculously not asleep before 9:30, I'm
thinking aloud about what the blog might become. Land-based for an unspecified
period, I don't have the evolving stream of stimuli, everything ready for a new
(to me) theory. Or just a photo that crystallizes, for us as much as anybody,
that life is good.
But the other day, walking, I came across an odd
structure, an abandoned open-air bar/dance hall, empty beer bottles in the
corners, vines growing up through the cracks in the tile, like I sometimes
stumbled across beachfront in the Dominican Republic, and realized that I still
have a passion for cast-off things, failures, places where rejection and
reinvention cross paths.
I don't have any ideas for how to frame this, or explore it, just the
intention to keep my eye out for what happens to people's used crap and the
relationships that adhere to it. (The only thrift store on the island
benefits the Humane Society--like thrift stores everywhere, it draws
immigrants, here Haitians and Dominicans counting up their purchases in French
and Spanish, trying to bargain, not trusting the cashiers, harried white
volunteers speaking in their stateside accents who care so much about the
luxury of pets. One calls out "Gracias" to a crowd of Haitian women
after a belabored transaction, provoking an eruption of laughter. I find a hat
from Madagascar, a child-sized pink Hawaiian muu-muu; Tallulah delights in the languid
cats who roam the place, wallowing in the simple fact of being alive.)