Wednesday, June 3, 2009
If anyone cares, there's a lot of noise in my head lately. There's a kind of tinnitus. Where is Adam, what is he doing, is he alive, when is he going to be there. How many times my sister and I would ask that question, riding in the car. Are we there yet? There's a noise like heavy metal played at low volume, that's the sound of I need to BE somebody. I've got to get some WORK done. Sit at my comPUter. FInish something. GOD. There's another sound, which is sometimes like static and sometimes like a stream flowing over moss-covered rocks, making little pools where tiny fish dart and catch the light, a breeze blowing through the sycamores, and that's the sound the baby makes.